Wasted

I streched my hands out
it was right in the middle of the night.....
i groped for my phone...pulsating and droning like the voice inside my head...
eyes opened to a slit
i looked at the display....no call...no message...
what was i groping for??
my phone i thought...
why do i still wake up with your taste in my mouth....
with your smell all over me..when you are gone so far..so far away from me...
i grope for you...for your warmth..the facade you carressed me in...
a sudden crash...an abrupt halt...a pain right up my spine...a chill near my neck..
your hands on my face...your hands on my stiches..
reading out aloud in death silence the vows of love...i love ya baby...i love ya...
an u-turn...you say you don't know me anymore...you say you don't want me anymore
you say you don't want it...
you didn't tell me why...you didn't move...still like your eyes on me...while i gently wept..
you didn't flicker even once..
you were sure that pain was gone...you kissed my crystal pain and said ..never...never again...
i look away from the phone and cry...no tears no more...no pain...so cold...frigid...
the bitter taste in my mouth...your mouth rather...
my love incomplete...my bones cracked into two pieces...four in all...
you said never ...never again...
i believed as you said...i believed as you did...